lovergirl

2010-03-10T11:43:00.002+08:00

it seems i hav trust the wrong person again. but yet again, who was wrong?
i hate to let the ppl around me disappointed. it hurts me even more.
its really true when they say, 人在做，天在看.
ppl can judge the past me. but i wont give them a chance again to comment on my present and future.
mistakes made cannot be changed. all i can do is make sure i dont make the same mistakes again.

; when u do something right, ppl dont really bother. but when u do something wrong, ppl condemn u forever.

悔

2009-12-02T03:09:00.002+08:00

got so many things in my heart tt its gonna burst out any moment.
trying very hard to keep it in, pretending it doesnt exist.
but in exchange, tears are coming out.
how i wish i can jus cry it all out and things will change for the better,
but i know its not goin to work.

i wanna be strong,
its a goal im trying hard to achieve.

2009-09-04T16:08:00.003+08:00

dunno wat to blog all of a sudden. its been so long, so many events tt i dunno whr to begin.
have been threaten by someone to MUST blog when she sends all de photos over cause its 4 BIG files. well, when de photos are here thn i blog bah. and slowly try to recall de events(:

anyways, recently bascially l4d have become part of my life. & also dieting!
trying to watch my diet. did a test which shows internally i have a body of an elderly. when i haven even 18 lor!!
so im goin to start my healthy lifestyle. determination....

today was a good start, woke up at 8plus in de morn. dunno why dis few days falling aslp seems so difficult. well, starting to feel tired nw bt cannot go slp. will be heading out soon for my appt.

mayb meetine eme later cause she will be out to take pay(:

next post will be posting up lots of photos i promise!

its a friday today, anyone have anywhere to go jus give mi a msg ok!
have fun &enjoy de weekend. loves<3

2009-08-20T06:31:00.003+08:00

today was a really great day.

left home around evening time and met up wif eme, pris, cindy, jason and mervyn (:
had dinner at cathay, thn was L4D. after tt went to watch district9. next we went to drink at nearby parklane area. around 2plus met up wif kr&co for L4D again until 6...

& nw im having a splitting headache and feel like vomitting.
L4D + district9+ drinking + L4D = can die sia!

/btw, district9 was damn er xin. watched de starting ald felt damn uncomfortable.

bt still, had a wonderful day wif my darlings<3

hopefully pictures all will be up soon(:

nw its time for bed, good night!!

p/s: finally ive made an effort to update my dying blog. haha!

2009-07-22T06:40:00.003+08:00

today is de fifth day ald. i did nt go out or even step out of my house for 5days leh! ok mayb once when i went to see a doc.

have been down with fever and cough since fri. lucky nt h1n1 ah. stay at home everyday jiu shi slp. thn wake up to eat bread thn eat medicine thn go back to slp. until yesterday thn fever went down. bt still keep coughing nonstop. suay suay yesterday my good fren come and visit mi.

very good lor! simply torture!!

i jus wan everything to end soon. i wan to go out..... ):

2009-07-16T04:30:00.002+08:00

jus came back from ph, after sooo long((:

morn is night. night is morn.
i cant get to slp again.

2009-07-12T07:50:00.003+08:00

i hav been awake since yesterday 10 in de morn. working thn after tt out till bout 4.
so till nw its has been 22hrs and i hav nt slept yet.my brain is slowing down& my eyelids are getting heavier. bt made myself post dis up before goin to bed. cause i find tt its an achievement.(:

okok im goin to stop and go knock myself out for 24hrs. or i can jus fall aslp while typing. trust me.

have a good slp all.
its a sunday(:

&im off till mon. super happy! nites!

2009-07-03T01:58:00.004+08:00

mayb its nt ok when i do it.
jus cant get it out of my f.mind.

悔

2009-06-14T21:58:00.003+08:00

its a sunday!
tml is mon. thn tues is offday(:

jus watch de preview for some horror show on tv. reminds mi tt i will all alone at home from the 19th to 24th.
my whole family is going overseas and bringing my maid along too.
no one to wake mi up, no one to wash my clothes, no one to cook, no one to clean de house...
de whole house will only have mi and only mi. i can jus talk to myself and make frens wif my father's fishes.
i am so going to die living alone.

anybody can lend their house? (:

2009-06-09T02:20:00.003+08:00

back from watching terminator at downtown and thn drinks at pasir ris(:

surprisingly terminator was a very nice show. (dint expect to like it. haha) although couldnt really understand de first part of de show. cried at de end damn badly lar. super emotional de last part. everything was just good. graphics to de sounds to de machines..
after tt went over to some place to drink and talk thn back home.

todays mood was from tired to teary to heart racing to i jus feel like banging my head against de wall.
a huge bomb jus suddenly drop on mi just nw.

anyways im feeling much better already, more calm nw. im glad to hear those things. its like a heavy stone in my heart have been lifted.
bt nw its back in my life again.

im goin to take it easy dis time round. i hope.

gotta wake up at 10am tml.

nights.

2009-05-29T06:39:00.003+08:00

gd morning!(:

its 6.39am nw, and im awake. fell asleep at 8plus last night. i think since the end of my secondary sch days. i have nv woke up so early ald.
okok today confirm can take bus go work ah. im so damn excited lar!

my stomach feels super empty right nw. my last meal was, think yesterday's kfc. 1meal in 2days-.-
seriously i don eat tt much leh. how come still so fat.. ):

aiya going to find things to eat nw. its been a long time since i ate something call breakfast.

/i think i dream tt i had to go army last night. haha.

(:

2009-05-18T00:24:00.002+08:00

recently have been leading a pretty healthy lifestyle, im sooo glad.
i hav managed to take bus home after work for bout 3 or 4 days already. shall improve slowly and i can do it ok! bt still cant kick away my habit of slping late. i have gossip girl to blame lar. its so nice tt im willing to sacrifice my slp,and regret de next day when i hav to wake up for work. so haven been slping much lately.

was supposed to work tonight. bt last min i don hav to go down cause there was no one. so, im at home nw watching my gossip girl again. well i guess no where is better thn home(:

will be back to work on wed. means i still have 2 more days of off, mon and tues.
3days in a row of off. its jus like last time in sch when de long holidays come and how i nv wanted it to end. its only tt now im working and i dont get anymore long holidays): so 3days is soooo damn precious to mi. i don wanna go back to work can.......

so i better do something fruitful these few days. tt is if i can get my body off my bed, my eyes of the com, and my mind off gossip girl.

okok i got to hurry. meeting prissy for supper. she goin to eat and im nt. cause she wont get fat and i will!

shall continue gossip girl when im back.(:

i just live as days goes by,
but whats life when there is no meaning to it?

guilty..

2009-05-01T20:50:00.003+08:00

today is labour day. bt i was supposed to be at work.
took an mc today and it cost mi $40. stupid shit waste of money again-.-
told de doc i had diarrheo and i got 4 different kinds of medicine. very good.

yesterday night was quite horrible. bt some really unexpected things happen. i am sooo happy!(:
my life sort of like a routine nw. nth new and always doin de same things. im getting pretty bored by it seriously...

hmm got to meet many of my darlings recently which is something tt im glad about. bt there are some which i hav nt met or catch up wid them for a long long time):
anyways lots of pics in my phone which i haven been uploading to my com. shall do tt when i got de mood &when im nt lazy. i wonder when would tt be.

sometimes i wonder why in life there are so many unexpected things and things tt i have done which i live to regret. i noe many will tell mi wats de point of regretting when it has been done ald. bt many a times i will think back and always wished i hav nt done dis, i hav nt done tt. how i wish i always noe wats de right thing to do. or noe wats goin to happen so i wont regret anything tt i hav done.
anyways jus some random thoughts..

shall go do my stuffs nw, bye!

i want nobody nobody but you *clapclap and points to you*
How can I be happy without you?

2009-04-19T02:55:00.002+08:00

i jus woke up nt long ago.
came back from work at bout 10plus, decided to lie down on my bed for awhile thn when i open my eyes it was bout 2am ald.
i have no idea tt i fell asleep. haha guess i was jus too tired ald.

and nw i shall go get ready to meet jen yl jer.
perhaps try to dong until morn thn go work straight. good idea?

i will miss my bed when im out):

byeeee!

2009-04-15T02:06:00.002+08:00

i think im crazy.

i spent almost bout $70 in a few hrs jus cabbing around to find food to eat, and on a 3hr stay in hotel81.
and for everyone's info, hotel81 was wif jennie.
so i think we are both crazy.

on one side im trying hard to earn money. on de other side im spending money like nobody's business on things tt are nt necessary-.-

somebody slap mi pls.
seriously.

i think i hav a fucked up life.

2009-03-30T22:40:00.003+08:00

emeline/mrs leong im updating ok!

and happy birthday jennie darling<3
her bday was on de 28th. hope u like de gift i got for u(:
it ok lar.. finally 18yrs old ald leh. drink until toh wid videos and pictures of u having toothpaste on ur face smiling like an idiot is totally fine. haha!:D

finally get my sun and mon off. 2days straight of off. damn song lar! bt its back to work tml..

on sat finally get to meet up wid all my dear girls((:
after jennie's bday chalet,i went over to tanjong pagar to meet pris jeremy and yl. eme was there wid silven and frens too. after tt went over to boatquay. cindy came to meet us after work.
left boat quay in de morning. i admit i was alittle gone ald.. cindy and yl were de ones still standing throughout de whole night until morn lar.

went home straightaway slp. my whole sun was spent on my bed slping. when i woke up it was night time ald. was still tired bt was damn hungry so bobian hav to wake up and eat. after eating, watch abit of tv thn was back to lalaland. haha. thn mon woke up late for my appt at 12. after slping for sooo long. i cant believe i still cant wake up lar! went there wid suf and in de end reach at 1. after i was done at bout 3. thn went to eat thn was homeeeee.

stayed at home until nw. was kinda free so decided to update my blog. well nw its either go to slp. or wait for some ppl to think whr to go.
&&& today i shall update some photos cause im free!

how could you be so heartless..

ok im back!(:

2009-03-24T01:35:00.004+08:00

im backkkkk to blog!(:

i noe i noe my last post was in feb and it ald mid march nw.
so i felt tt i shld do something, if nt my blog will be dead.

there is soooo much to update bt im lazy.
i am damn proud tt im still working. i haven quit or kena fired lar!(((:

activites these days is all at night after work. mostly either to club or to drink-.-
i shld really do something else. something more healthy and enriching to my life. i wanna have healthy lifestyle. haha!

& i have been coughing nonstop since dunno when. really damn suay lar. i nw totally believe wat ppl say. tt if u fall sick during the start of the yr. u will keep falling sick for the rest of the yr.
i hate cough! i hate being sick laaaaaaaaa!
and i hate medicine too..
)):

its 2:26, im goin to slp soon! nan de im at home and can have more thn 3hrs or slp.
okokokok my bed, my pillow, my bloster, my blanket and all my dear soft toys are waiting for mi ald.

g'nites!

its been so long and i still cant move on, why???

2009-02-28T22:33:00.004+08:00

tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired

my eyes are gonna close anytime.
shall go to bed nw nw nw nw!!

bt im missing out drinking wid my dears..)):

i hate work lar.

&nights all.

2009-02-27T00:04:00.004+08:00

almost everyday 1030 to 830 at work,& nw im finally back home from work!((:
fell asleep at work again today. slept in de room cause today was quite free. de bed was damn hard and it was freezing cold lar. missed my bed sosososo dearly thn.
and nw,im back at home blogging while lying down on my bed(:

//
things seem to be getting worse and worse. dunno why it became like tt. i oso dunno wat i can do. i feel so helpless. seeing my dear ones around mi like tt. they are the ones who will always be there for mi. and i will always be there for them no matter wat. sometimes things are really unpredictable. we nv noe when it will as fall apart. it makes mi suddenly feel so lost when things turn out like dis. how i wish i can be superwoman to come out and solve everything. bt i noe im nt.. and im nowhere near.
however, i believe that there will always be probs among frens. and tt de friendship will be stronger in future after overcoming it all.
<3

2009 a bad yr?
it hav nt been tt good so far. bt i hope it will get better. or shld i say it will get better.

2009 a good yr?
yes it is.

got nth interesting to blog bout my life.
long time since i went for movies ald lor. or even to shop. or even jus meeting up wid frens to slack and talk):

today i will slp early, & i will wake up early tml morn to take bus to work, and arrive at work on time.

i noe i keep repeating dis sentence. bt i haven done it yet:x
soooo i hope i can really do it tml lar.

so slp early too everyone! slp early and wake up early is healthy(:
bye&nights.

a girl with a broken heart..
and deep inside,my tears i'll drown.
it cut me like a knife, when you walked out of my life.

2009-02-24T22:21:00.002+08:00

suddenly i feel so lost.
and i dunno why. i cant seem to keep up with everything in my life.

im staring at de screen,fingers on the keyboard.. bt i hav no idea wat to type. cause i oso dunno how to explain or put into words wat im feeling right nw.

hmm so guess i shld jus go eat my maggi and go to bed.

good
night.

2009-02-19T22:26:00.002+08:00

finallyyyyyy, the internet connection is up!: D

haven been able to use de com for dunno how long. dint wanna touch de com today. cause havent been having enough slp these few days. bt.... couldnt resist de temptation. telling myself tt it will only be awhile. and it will be lor! by 11:oopm i will turn off de com and go slp.(:

okok left 30mins;

have been late for work everyday.
and cabbing to work every morning. my pay all goes to cab, so im like actually working for my cab fare-.-

anyways baby kayson is finally out!! visited him at kkh. couldnt get near him cause i was sick.): for him, i will get well soon so i can bao bao my godson(:
grats eme&kr for becoming father and mother on valentine's day!

valentine's morning was spent at phuture thn boat quay. valentine's afternoon was spent slping. and valentine's night was spent at kkh.
great valentine? i dunno.. haha.

these few days have been reaching home in de morning and waking up to go work nt long after.
dont think i can carry dis on. if nt im goin to die soon ah!
haha, or mayb jus at least let mi rest for a few days first.((:

alrightssssss, i still got 10 more mins.
shall go slowly get ready to tuck into my bed, and go into lala land!
&& hope i can wake up on time and take bus to work tml.

goodnight!

and, im really missing some ppl right nw.

2009-02-08T22:51:00.002+08:00

im home.

ever since 010109, things have nt been goin smoothly.
and i mean really nt smoothly. can say all dis have been de worse in my life so far.

my head is filled wid questions everyday which only i can answer myself. till nw, i have no answers to them yet. & i noe i cant keep dragging it. im oso really tired ald. to slp with those question and wake up the next day thinking of the same things again. it jus goes on like dis everyday.

according to zodiac, whether to believe or nt. i dunno.
2009 is a bad year for ppl born in de year of goat. which happens to be de yr i am born in.
how lucky.

will i be able to overcome all of this? ....

2009-01-28T22:35:00.010+08:00

finally, it has been dunno how long ever since i touched my laptop.
back from work. heng sun work until 730 only. if nt think i will die in de shop ah.
have been waking up late for work recently, resulting in mi taking cab-.-
sooo tt why im goin to slp early today. is 10pm early?..

anyways got loads to update lar, its gonna be a long post. u can skip it or u can read it up to u ok.
don say i nt good. hahha(:

hmm. let mi try to recall,

new yr eve 25th; work till 3pm. thn went over to uncle house to eat. thn after tt back home to eat reunion dinner. stayed awhile only thn went out to meet lingdi dear, wenzhong yude and wenzhong fren. went chinatown(:

since dunno how many thousand yrs ago i haven been over to chinatown during chi new yr ald. watched pao pao. and had fireworks too! dint waste our effort of pushing ppl and kena pushed to get into de crowd. after tt went over to some pub called melodyvalley2. drank till bout 3am as de pub was closing ald. thn i went over to yl house. wq jeremy byron jun and wesley was there ald. played ban lak. dint have very good luck and dint hav very bad luck. won my cab fare home.(:

chu yi 26th;
had to wake up early in de morn. damn shag slept for bout 4hrs only. de whole family was waiting for mi to wake up to go bai nian:x
quickly rush and prepare. dint went to much houses. getting lesser every yr. new yr becomes more and more boring sia. thn was night ald,went to meet lingdi and wenzhong to watch "jia you xi shi" at ehub. thn was limping wherever i go cause de high heels were killing mi.
thn was homeeee.

chu er 27th;
went to 2houses only. was lying/sitting down wherever i can. and falling alseep every nw and thn. haha. really really cannot help it. bt until night i was awake ald. went over to kr&eme house. hanwen litian xiaoalvin and another guy was there ald. junkwang came nt long after. ban lak again... bt can say luck abit better? was de second highest winner.(: even though it seriously wasnt alot.
thn was mac breakfast and bout 630am took cab home to find my cozy bed((:

chu san 28th;
finally can slp for as long as i wan cause no more bai nian ald. parents gone back to work.
soooo bout 6plus pm i woke up. i havent been able to slp for such long hrs since i dunno when lor!
night back to eme house again. went wid chris and jason. and yes ban lak + mahjong.
&& i went back home wid a much lighter wallet.. played all de way until morn.
and i decided to take mc for de day. i nd to rest mah work too hard ald so nd rest abit longer. right?:D

30th jan;
back to work again. thn went double o at night. lets jus say it wasnt a very good night.
bt was glad tt i could see u, really. i guess tt night was de last. im sorry.
and i hate myself for making de wrong decisions again.
bt wat can i do? nothing.

31th jan;
work again. late as usual. bt lucky boss dint call to check or wat. so still safe..
met yl jeremy wz and lewis after work. decided to go over to phuture to get chop first thn go home prepare. was damn paiseh lar! i was like de most underdressed there.
bout 9plus goin 10 left for home to get change and all after getting de chop.
met them at 11plus. go in awhile only, saw de person carrying a tray of shots towards us. each person had 5shots to drink, say warm up only. lucky i was still alrights..
thn went to find daren and his frens for awhile as they were there too.
bout 2plus left for boatquay to find eme they all, frens bday. wanting &silven were there too. its been a long time since i saw them!(: left bout 3plus cause i really needed to rest.
sorry... made myself look so stupid again.

it has been two days.

dis is de first time i have put my pride and everything down.
i noe i shouldnt have bt i couldnt help it. my own stupidity. only have myself to blame.
and nw i have to pick myself up all over again.
if only things between me&you wasnt like tt. is dis de end?/

i miss you all very very much,yes i do!:D

2009-01-24T22:01:00.006+08:00

jus reach home from work.
had to dong de whole day of work after only 3hrs of slp. and thanks to tt, i fell asleep on the bus!
luckily once i open my eyes,i was reaching my stop.

21st jan;
after work, went home and get changed to meet jy and ahdiong. went rebel to meet another 2guys.
and some fucked up things happen there. sorry girl. i swear when im 18 i will use my ic and throw it at tt bitch's face!
thn went over to tanjong pagar to find pris while waiting for her to end work. saw reynard there too. drank beer there.. finally bout 2 she end work we went over df to look for frens. hopped over to ph for awhile thn back to df.
tt night was crazy. and heng next day off. reached home at bout 6.

22nd jan;
slept for almost de whole day!
it been a long time since i catch up on my 12hrs slp lor...

23rd jan;
and its back to work.
after work met chris for dinner while waiting for his fren to come down town meet him.
went home change and after tt went over to zouk to find yongle jeremy weiqiang murphy byron and another 2 guys oso stay simei one. ps cant rmb their names ald:/
chris& his fren was there too!
once reach there, stupid murphy keep "lim ah lim ah, bo da bo lam pa. and keep knocking on my glass." talk like half drunk ald.
play 5 10 oso dunno why keep foul thn lose. super bad luck tt day lar.
and and and cause a few of us including mi went late. we couldnt get de phuture chop. so we can only stay in zouk and it was trance=.=
until 3plus thn can go in. 3songs of r&b only thn finish le.
haha $25 dollars for 3songs. anyhow we spent most of our time in trance,it was nt tt bad even though r&b would be much better.
thn bout 5 it was home sweet home cause had work de next day.

24th jan;
i made it to work ok! haha after 3 hrs of slp, i reluctantly got out of bed. and was late for bout 20mins only. proud of myself((:

tml is new yr eve ald.
happy chinese new yr all! <3

work till 3 tml. shagggggggg.

its was a long update ok.
slowly read,and must read every single word okok((:

the end.

it hurts bt wat can i do.
i am so stupid.
im missing you alot right nw.

2009-01-20T22:37:00.003+08:00

期待拥抱
又害怕会被你知道
到底是要远远看你
还是靠近一点更好
我不确定你是不是
我一直要找的主角

总是不敢要太多
总是觉得自己还不够
可是為什麼看见你对她的问候会心痛

最想说就别管我我没事的

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush

Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush aint goin away, goin away..

im getting used to it.
its nt like i have nt been through it before.

2009-01-19T23:51:00.003+08:00

it doesnt matter to mi ald. i have my life and u have urs. and i wont give a fk bout anything in ur life.

16th jan;
went ph & df wid darlings and met some other ppl there.
had fun really. its been a long time since i had tt much fun((:

18th jan;
after work went over to find suf and steph. talk abit and thn all acc steph go meet jeremy. sat down awhile and waited for dino and reuben to come. after tt jeremy and steph went off first. its been a long time since i met them to slack and talk lar! thn went over to suf house bout 11plus cause dino wanted his moehog the side part to be skinhead. so mi suf reuben dino went over to suf house cause suf say he will cut for dino. siao one seriously....
took photos of the before,the process and de after. haha!
after which walked wid reuben and dino to my block downstairs thn they went off to meet de others.

it work again tml morn. 8oclock wake up, nua on de bed until 830-845 go bathe and prepare. leave house at 930. reach workplace bout 1030-1040. & end work at 830pm.
so i shld go slp soon.
yes very soon.
mayb bout 1plus? 2?
haha.

((:

i am scared.
i dint expect dis to happen.
i really feel like giving up on everything.
i don wanna go through being hurt anymore.

T I R E D

2009-01-17T23:15:00.002+08:00

dis few days have been; morn wake up, work, go home, slp. thn morn wake up, work, go home, slp. thn morn... and it continues.

im really fking worn out. okok mayb partly my fault cause even i can slp early i always wan wait until past midnight thn can slp. bad habit!

hmm i kind of like long bus rides nw i dunno why. **provided i hav a seat lar!haha.
i take 1hr jus to travel to work by bus5 thn 10mins to walk to taka. and 50mins to travel from work back home by bus5 thn 3mins walk home.

its work again tml. until next thurs thn its my off day. seems so long and far away..
and its jus one precious day only..
)):

soooo to make up my serious lack of slp last night i shall slp early today. so tt i wont hav to cab to work anymore. & show up at work wid a super shag face.

g o o d n i g h t s
<3

I dint expect myself to fall so deep into it.
& nw tt im in it, i cant seem to get out.

/who can understand how i really feel inside?
somethings are really hard to explain. even i myself sometimes don understand.

my dearest missxielingdi<3

2009-01-15T00:21:00.004+08:00

happy 18th birthday my dear xielingdi xiaojie!!!<33

jus came back from bedok. went to pass my dearest her bday present. had to do it tonight cause after 12midnight it was her big 18th birthday. i noe i noe, don haolian ald. around another 11months & 26days it would be my turn. haha!((:

hope she like her present from eme&mi. and u better finish de heineken all by urself ah. ur favourite mahhhh:p

work was so-so. tried for first time waxing on my fren. really nt as simple as it looks like seriously. she was really brave. haha thankthanks! did mani and pedi for her too.
i nd more models for practice, bt don worry a professional will be beside mi to guide and help. soooo who is interested can give mi a call alrights.(: nd ppl as soon as possible!*

today is a bad bad day;
was on de way home today, when i sudddenly felt very uncomfortable. wasnt really feeling tt well ald. cause my good fren came today. cramps became much worse at night. was standing at de bus stop waiting for bus and suddenly i started breaking out in cold sweat,and my vision became blur. tried to tahan bt no use. in de end to make sure tt i don faint in public i quickly squat down out of nowhere and waited awhile till i was feeling better. bus5 finally came. went up de bus and quickly find a seat. damn scary. even though its nt de first time tt it has happen,bt its de first time im all alone & in public. was so lost at tt time lar. &thank god its over!

nw im goin to try and hav a good rest so tt i can make it for work tml. hope i can get to slp soon.

&& hope work would be better. im sure i can adapt. im sure i can do it. im sure i can get used to it. bt thn again, sometimes i think im nt tt capable..

well, niteees! &happydreams everyone((:

things keep goin round and round in my head,
making my mind tired of thinking.

town,bugis,kbox<3

2009-01-13T05:37:00.003+08:00

5:37am, bout 6 more hrs i nd to be awake ald. first day of work!
hahah i must must must wake up no matter wat,and hope slping queen number2 misscindynahxinyi can wake up too.

town in de afternoon wid loveeees eme&cindy. thn was bugis to meet dear prissy. after tt kbox(:

mayb i shld take sleeping pills or/ knock myself out to sleep as soon as possible. so tt i can wake up by 1130 tml. wonder how wil my first day of work be..

nites/morning, whichever lar! byeee((:

5:48, its bedtime!!!

the past suddenly came back and memories all flooded my mind.
to say tt i have forgotten would be a lie,
it has always been hiding at a corner in my mind.
bt tts all it will be,as memories forever.
long bus journeys always make mi think alot, is it good or is it bad?..

its friday night

2009-01-10T00:37:00.003+08:00

its friday night!

bt its jus like any other day.

boringggggg.

anyways at my friends house nw blogging. jus came back from shopping. bt dint buy anything much. walk and walk and walk bt saw nth i like. looking for some specific tops bt cant find it):

dis chinese new yr dunno will be good or bad. hmm jus looking forward to getting ang baos..(:

will be starting work next wk?

wish mi luck!

i will be working at honeypot. the taka/ngee ann city outlet. if u happen to be around there must come and visit mi okokok!

alrights shall go find some things to do nw.

&hope my sat night will have something to do. *hint* date mi out alrightsss((:

cause work is goin to start soon.

sooo see u ppl,

byeeee.

enjoy ur weekend!

come on lar, wat i said came true.

guess once again,it was all lies.

my heart tells mi nt to trust again./

2009-01-08T00:43:00.002+08:00

im backkkk home.
nt bad time check its 12:44am,have been coming home early these days(:

as promised went down rtiz-carlton to pei weizhi go for his interview. in the end, say wrong timing must come in the morn and for nw they don nd ppl until feb. wasted trip!
thn after tt went over to funan to meet murphy who was goin to end his work/studies at kimage.
meanwhile walked around penin to find smiley for wz,damn mafan lar him. hai wo walk until legs damn suan. after tt went back funan and we played fifa street soccer in a gameshop while waiting. i trashed him laaaaa o-5. haha! i zai or zai. even though i anyhow press de button and dunno wat im doin still win. :DDD

bout 5plus murphy finally end. thn went over to tm to meet weiqiang his friend and jun. went to eat and waited for pris to come down meet mi. after tt got a msg from eme tt she is at tm buying things. so mi&pris went over mothercare to find her&kr. looking at all de baby stuffs. sooooo cute! my baby boy /or girl must be dressed up pretty pretty and play wid cute cute toys. okok thinking too much nw still early...
thn walk walk around abit and decided to go over to de big mac to slack.
bout 12plus left for home,and nw im home.
its was a good day(:

got a call today to say im hired, will be meeting the bosses tml. they ask mi to think carefully. whether im sure dis is wat i wan. bt wat is it tt i really wan?i oso dunno...
shall be meeting them at 5 tml. will see how thn.
which kind souls can acc mi tml?(((:

fuck it,fuck all dis.
why do i hav to go through all dis again.
mayb i shld jus go to bed and forget everything
& nt to go think so much.
jus one last word;
f u c k.

it was a day out

2009-01-07T11:53:00.004+08:00

yesterday night made myself slp early so tt i will be able to make it for yesterdays dental appt. pain!!!! now i hav problem chewing again,chew oso in slow motion..
anyways anyways eme had appt at kkh in the morn and was done by 10plus. she waited all alone there for mi&pris to wake up.
at bout 12 i woke up to prepare to go to outram for my appt. met eme there and after my appt we went over to chinatown meet pris and we went to eat. we ate yum cha((:
nice nice! despite mi who hav jus tightened my braces,i heck care jus eat only. ho liao how i miss out. even thought i ate slower thn them lar.

$16.80++ for adults ; which is bout $20 in total for buffet.
our table were filled wid food all over. and,we manage to almost eat everything up. haha power rightttttttttt!

thn thn after eating was shopping time. yes my tai tai life. bt i went shopping w/o $$$$.
so equals to jus walking around to exercise after a filling meal.
&&& wth nw everywhere oso cannot smoke. lift cannot, lift lobby cannot, 5m radius from aircon shopping centre oso cannot.. and many more. how we noe whr can whr cannot right. how our brain memorise all the places. eme came up wid a suggestion,why nt whole of singapore draw yellow boxes to tell us whr can smoke whr cannot. thn always say do dis wrong do tt wrong later $200 gone. shit lar seriously.

ok back to topic. pris had to go to work at 7. so we went over to far east sit down talktalk and rest. while waiting for kr to reach. coincidentally, wanting&silven was there. haha always at far east will see them there oso. sat down talk talk awhile thn they went off to do more shopping.
left mi eme and kr go slice to eat. after tt all were tired so all went back homeeee.

bus5 journey from fareast back home was nt tt bad afterall. had time alone to jus plug in my earplugs listen to music and think through many many things. and thanks to you who pei mi msg all de way so i wont fall aslp, thanks lar(:

peeeeektures/

*eme faster send mi the rest of the photos taken by u!(:

**got to go get ready to meet weizhi soon. im sooo nice lar,pei him go interview at ritz-carlton. hao ren you hao bao. hope i will hav hao bao bah!! haha.

/and of course, happy birthday boonkok!!
i rmb ok(:
have fun and enjoy dis day of urs^^

trust?

2009-01-06T22:54:00.002+08:00

can i or can i nt?
whats trust,i really dunno anymore.
promises, what the fuck are they.
i have been disappointed again and again till i dunno shld i trust anymore..
even i cant trust my own heart.
everything seem to be a lie.

ahhhhh f.

2009-01-03T23:11:00.004+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
still nt getting better. cough&flu seem to like mi so much tt they are still sticking wid mi,refusing to leave mi alone.
and if dis continues think im goin to die soon...

having problems trying to slp. once i lie down my nose gets blocked. my throat is hurting like hell. who can save mi from dis torture)):

its sat night and im home.
bored.

cough aand cough, sneeze and sneeze.
i swear i don wan to be sick again!!

guess its goin to be another boring weekend.

woooo lala land here i come.
and hope tt its sweetdreams tonight..

qianyiloves... you!:D

its 2009 bbbbaaabbbyyy!

2009-01-02T04:16:00.006+08:00

goodbye 2008 and hhheeelllooo 2009!!
2008 had its ups and downs.
i hope 2009 will be much better. godddd pls...

on new years eve, left home bout 10plus thn went down to bugis to meet yongle weizhi jeremy weiqiang murphy junxiong and his girlf at a pub there. spent my last few minutes of 2008 and my first few minutes of 2009 there. played wid sparkles, powder bombs, poppers,whistles and etc. and and, i said i wont drink so i dint touch a single drop of liquor there((: haha. long time since i saw yl, botak ald must grow up ald ok! don say i cannot lecture u hor. =p and bout 12plus i left, when i was bout to leave jeremy ald like cannot make it. haha.

after tt went over to boat quay to meet up wid eme kr hanwen litian ahhui and jialin came over to join us too. went over to honey bar cause u bar was super full. andy his girlf joshua boonkiat celest was over at u bar.
/cindy&sw were celebrating at home wid redwine and titbits,enjoy ah! haha(:
stupid! brought 2 balloons over from bugis and everyone was trying to burst them,my poor balloons...

thn as usual they were drinking, i really donwan to drink bt was forced to. drank very very little cause was nt feeling well too.
walked here and there de whole night so many ppl was there.
saw sean &co. wenzhong &co. were there too. saw alvin'bearbear oso and drank beer wid them! yuck..
aiya bt since it new yr everybody happy can ald^^

after tt around 6 like tt pris darling came over to find us after her work. went over to golden cafe talk and eat.
"there are alot of things tt is beyond our control. dry up ur tears and buck up. im sure u can do it. u have all of us who will be supporting u alrights. cheer up(:"
hmm thn share cab wid pris and wenzhong to go home. we were super lucky,went out to the main road and there was an on call cab who say he can fetch us. haha! save our time. many were still there waiting /or calling for cabs.
tt pretty much sums up my new yr eve.

010109 spent at home.
seems like a bad start to a new yr bt hopefully it will change for the better.
i really really hope it will,no more stupid mistakes...

my cough and flu is killing mi!!!
i have a man's voice nw):
bt bt bt im strong i believe few more days thn i will recover ald!

yesss so i shall go slp soon and recuperate(((:

you are like a million miles away, beyond my reach..

fcuker!
i hate you

priss darling bdayyyy

2008-12-30T03:03:00.005+08:00

first of all, happy birthday pris dearest!!(((:
hope u enjoyed ur 19th bday and the surprise we gave u!:D

meet up wid de girls eme&cindy at around 5plus. sooorrrryyyyyy i woke up late.
damn tired.. guess all of us dint hav enough slp so tonight all rest early and have a good slp ok!

left de house bout 4plus went over to eastpoint to get daisies for dear pris. thn met up with eme&cindy to go town and get the rest of the stuffs for pris present. shop shop shop and walk walk walk was in the rush cause we are afraid tt we wont be able to make it on time. thn settled down at long john to hav our meal first thn start on the present.
damn kan chiong cause pris say shes done and can go meet eme ald. thn thn by bout 9plus eme quickly went to meet her&kairui first cause we bluffed her tt cindy&mi cant meet her. while cindy&mi went to collect the cake,strawberry shortcake. glad we made de right choice of cake cause jus nice tt was de cake tt pris like. rush rush rush! thn cindy&mi lighted up de cake wanting to go over ald to starbucks whr they were,thn kairui said tt we were coming from the wrong direction cause pris is facing whr we are coming from. soooo we blow off the candle and walk one big round to de other exit. saw pris back facing us,thn we lighted up the candle once again and slowly walked towards her.(my hands were shivering like shit,dunno why haha) she was shocked and cried upon seeing us cause she thought we was nt goin to be there.
after awhile joshua&celest came over. chit chatted awhile and after tt went over to orchard plaza there to hav our dinner.
after dinner went back over to plaza sing to sit down slack and talk.
and thn was home sweet home(:

hope dear pris is happy! how can we nt be there on ur birthday correct...
haha.

tml got dental appt again,i hate it!
so gtg go slp early if nt cant wake up again.
bt before tt wanna go watch abit of drama first
haha jus 1episode will do,hmm jus hope it doesnt become 10episodes.

byeeee love u all((:

picturessss enjoyyyy;

; and its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust.

goodmorning!

2008-12-28T07:04:00.004+08:00

morning! rise and shine (:
haha im goin to bed soon, bt i made a promise to myself tt i will see the sun today.
set alarm at 2 hope i can wake up.

watched Ip man wid boonkok jer and mervin today. nice nice very nice, should go watch. at first thought was some stupid fighting show, bt turn out to be nice. haha i wan go learn yong chun quan and protect myself!((:

after tt went over to bq to find eme they all. finally get to see my darling cindynahxinyi.(:
sit there drink drink talk talk sing song. bout 3plus 4 when the pub close we all went to eat bah chor mee. everyone went home left mi joshua and boonkiat who decided to save money,waited until 6am to take cab home. went over to mac and waited for time to pass. stupid kena bully by both of them, talk to them until pekcek! after which home sweet home^^

alrights, shall end here and go to bed.
niteees!
/or shld i say morning instead(:

所谓的爱，我永远都得不到吧。

once again

2008-12-27T20:07:00.002+08:00

the feeling is back again.
how i wish it will nv find mi
i wanna hide, to get away from everyone&everything...

its going to be a new yr

2008-12-26T19:09:00.002+08:00

christmas jus past, anwyays even if a little late,
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!! ((:
hope everyone enjoyed their christmas!

on the 24th,christmas eve i left home at bout 11.40pm(and missed countdown..) to go over to serangoon to meet winston and his friends. a pub there called grapevine, open air de wid pool table. first time there so was abit blur when i reached. eme and kr came over to find mi while waiting for the rest to come. went in the pub for awhile thn left. they were playing games there. 1 of the games tt i took part was; a few teams of 1boy&1girl compete against each other to see who finish drinking 1jug of beer the fastest wid straw. mi team wid winston && we won!! haha starting he ald finish bout half or more of the jug. winston u really li hai lar!(: after tt game i left. i think we won $50.
met the rest and went over to marina dunno wat. a new place very big with beautiful scenery. a good place for dating, romantic romantic! haha.
thn eme kr edmund and mi went simpang to eat after tt home sweet home.

25th christmas day stayed at home, relatives came over in the afternoon. got christmas present from my aunt, a sk jewellery necklace. thanks ahkim((:
andand,from my mum i got angbao. HAHA cause my mum says tt im very fussy thn she dunno wan to buy wat for mi. she said since i so money face she say give angbao the best. my own mother say tt bout mi. sad laaaaaa

hmm no plans for dis few days. guess stay at home and rest while preparing for the new yr to come. 2008 is over& 2009 is coming. many many resolutions;

- get a good and stable job
- earn $$$
- spend money on my wants(:
- become a better person(every yr say same thing bt dunno got do nt haha)
- spend lots lots of quality time wid my lovelys
-
-

alot more bt guess shall fill in the blanks when i think of them.
hmm can i have christmas wishes as well???
i don care lar can have or nt i jus say! my christmas wishes;

- next yr would be a better yr
- life wont have so many ups and downs(like can avoid like tt=.=)
- my gan er zi safely come into de world, both mummy and babyboy healthy:D
- lovelife... donwan talk bout it shall let nature takes it course(:
- money come in as much as possible ah!
- and of course, everyone around me happy and blessed!^^

to you: even though we have gone our seperate ways. i wish u all de best ok((:
don always let setbacks bring u down, must be strong and stand up to do ur best and move on wid life. control ur temper alrights i believe u can do it. whoever ur next girlf is, treat her like a gem cause tt wat girls wan from guys. they nd nth bt the love care and concern from guys. anyways goodluck and all the best to ur future and takecare during ur ns life, have fun during ur bmt kkkk!(:

sunday missxielingdi off, promise to meet her from morn till night. morn go zoo afternoon go shopping night go eat.... haha i think i can only meet her for dinner. BUT i will try my best to wake up de. don worry ok!(: missu sooo much lar everyday work work work. don say i boxim liao hor, blog oso got u inside. read dis post le give mi and msg/or call(:

misscindynahxinyi have been mia-ing, guess she must be busy wid her stuff. i really really really miss her alot. see lar say until wan cry liao):
anyways u takecare ok girl, anything can jus call/or msg mi my phone 24hr nv off one.
loveeeeeeeees(:

jennie darling, don worry soon lar we will have the chance again. must wait patiently ok. haha dis u noe i noe can ald. =p

pictures? bit lazy to upload lehhhh sorry lar. next time whole post flooded wid pictures for u to enjoy until siao, so nw be patient abit tt post will come soon..

its has been a long long post. guess ur eyes read until here ald suan and ur eyes probably nd eyesdops ald. so i shall stop here and say byebyebyebyebye everyone don miss mi too much!!((:

what love, can anybody tell mi?
sorry bt i seem to have lost confidence in everything; especially a thing called ai qing.

< / 3

2008-12-21T22:33:00.005+08:00

i sincerely apologise.
i guess tt im nt good enough for u bah, im nt a good girlf, i nt a good person. sorry if i hurt u. seriously u think i wasnt hurt at all, seriously u think i dint cry and seriously u think my heart is nt pain. if u think tt is wat i am thn up to u. u can say i donwan to meet u or ans ur call is cause im trying to run away. yes i am,cause i dunno wat to say when i see u. i dunno how to face im nt brave enough to say wat my feelings were. fine im a coward. i a coward when it comes to relationship. i admit.
mayb i only bring misery to others. i nt good enough for anyone. and nt good enough for u.
u said im cruel, yar i really am. bt wat bout u. hav u thought of those things tt u always say to mi. those words werent hurting i swear,and i really really felt nth.
if tt is the case i dunno those tears tt i shed were for fk.

i really dunno wat to say le.
fullstop

edit/

im so sorry, guess i have reached my limit ald. i really cant hold on until de end. the promises im sorry i cant fulfil them. things cant go back to wat they were ald. sorry if it all too sudden. if u have changed tt is good,bt i may nt be the blessed one to see ur change. everything has come to an end.
all i wanna say is 2yrs very fast will be over, pls buck up and finish the 2yrs. i will be out here supporting u as a fren(:

its raining nw and i feel like standing in the rain,i dunno why. its been a long long long time since i have done tt...

love is a mess

2008-12-21T17:36:00.007+08:00

mayb u jus went into army too early when we are nt stable enough.

its been 9days since u went in, these few days i have been thinking. from the first day u went in until nw, our conversations everyday were getting lesser and lesser. i really feel we are drifting. we seem to have nth much to talk to each other. i try to sound happy and think of topics to talk bout bt u seem shag and like nt wanting to talk to mi. mayb u are tired bt when u talking to ur bunk mates u are so energetic. mi who is at the other side of the phone, how do u think i will feel. talking to mi makes u very sian and unhappy isit. everytime nt until 5mins we will hang, wid many silences in our conversation. without u out here is tough, bt ur temper seem to still nt change. u don seem to care bout wats happening wid mi outside, or mayb u did i jus dint notice. i really dunno im feeling very confused nw. everything tt we did for the past 2months keeps running through my mind, the good and the bad. i really feel we are become more and more like strangers. there are alot of i dunnos and maybs. i dunno mayb its my fault. i nt goin to work for 2days and tt mayb i will be goin to find another job. and u said i was irresponsible and u are disappointed wid mi. yar its my fault tt i don wanna go to work, it my fault tt i like to slp so much tt i cant wake up to go to work, its my fault tt i wanna find another job, its my fault tt i said i wanted to work there and nw i keep donwan go work, its my fault tt i cant even withstand when u only went in for 9days and our relationship become like tt. its my fault tt i could nt fulfil our promise. im really afraid to see u on th 24th, i dunno how it will be like. 2more days...
and, pls don make mi hate u.

second day of work

2008-12-20T17:52:00.002+08:00

oops! it the second day of work and im here. haha cannot blame mi ah, really very tired my heart wants to go work bt my body cannot move. my eyes refuse to open. even my ahma oso ask mi don go work jus go slp. i love my ahma can((:

first day of work, slept for bout 5hrs thn wake up to go work. took bus 38 thn change 27 to go compass point. thn still nd walk a long way to reach my shop.dint eat for the whole day cause had terrible cramps. after work went ehub to watch twilight wid lingdi jennie boonkok and jer. nice movie!!! so sweet and edward cullen is super hot.......... im goin crazy. watching dis show makes mi think tt being able love someone and being loved is such a wonderful thing.

after tt, i had to go home straight and couldnt go eat wid lingdi and jennie cause i had to wake up early. in de end i oso dint make it for work lar. lol

hai suddenly missing alot of ppl nw..
hope they noe hu they are and dis is for them imissyouall darlingsssssss!

alrights im done here and im goin to find food to eat nw(:

2008-12-19T03:19:00.002+08:00

back back back im back from majiangyue's house!
it been ages since i went over.
no pics cause they refuse to take picture wid mi))):

17th dec, wed: went over to majiangyue house to stayover. very very long nv like tt le, was glad to be over. we did alot of stupid things, back to those secondary sch days when i always go over her house. haha miss her house like hell. miss her even more!(: goin to start work later, wont be able to spend time wid all my loves ald.

18th dec, thurs: changed thn went out to meet lunlun walked around ms and had my hair cut. sssssuuuppppeeeeerrrr de short nw lor! fringe = bangs. haha. ppl hu see mi better don laugh ok! after tt went back jy house again. talk talk watch tv thn went home wid lunlun.

19th dec, fri: goin to begin my first day of work. very very scared wonder how it will be like. most importantly whether i have made de right decision. hmm i have only few hrs more to really think carefully before i can back out. 1wk 1 day off, 1yr contract if i wanna break the contract nd pay them 1000dollars. how how how? many things goin through my mind nw..

well, go to go to bed soon hav to be awake by 10 cause work starts at 12. ppl wish mi luck!

bt i wonder whether i can get to bed, wid so many things running through my mind.
i really donwan to ..... and i hope .....

bye and nites everyone.

jus for you.

2008-12-16T22:46:00.006+08:00

as requested, haha no lar is i willingly from de bottom of my heart de,

i love you chia lingdi<33

big enough liao mah? don say i nt good liao lar hor..
dis whole post just for u leh,
u better meet mi up soon ok! off oso donwan meet mi change liao lor. so long no see i think is u donwan mi lor. hai sad very very sad.

*just for you by your dearest ong qianyi(:

^in case u forget how i look like

stayover(:

2008-12-16T19:03:00.004+08:00

jus sent cindy and sw off,
eme left bout 6 to go bedok for her appt, kr left early in the morn for work. really glad to hav all of them over last night((:
sorry for making u all wait for 1hr plus under my block. haha they are all nice ppl lor!(:

bout 3plus came up to my house, guys played chinese chess thn we girls played mahjong(again haha) at another table.

chinese chess loser had to do pushups. kr did 20 and sw did 40. only after 2rounds they were tired and went into the room. both watched texas chainsaw massacre before goin to bed. bt heard tt kr fell aslp first and left sw alone watching the show. haha! i got more such shows next time let u all slowly watch(:

thn we girls haven finish playing dong fong jiu end the game liao. ordered mac at bout 4plus and all ate like greedy pigs and talking all the way. thn bout 6plus cindy buay dong ald fell aslp on my sofa. haha left mi and eme the only ppl awake. after kr go work cindy move in to slp wid sw, mi and eme went to another room to slp. let the 2 of them tian mi mi..haha.
mi and eme in the room talk talk until dunno wat time and dunno how we both fell aslp, i was the last to wake up lar. see the time ald 5plus in the afternoon liao. soon eme left thn cindy and sw left too. nw left mi alone at home again)):

still thanks for coming over! hope i wasnt a bad host. feel free to come over anytime again!(:

pictures pictures alot waiting for misscindynahxinyi to be free thn she can send us.

i wanna go out.. bt no job no money how how how??
i noe im being irritaing. i cant help it mah. hai~

finally was able to let out the things in my heart, sometimes i jus dunno and how to express wat im really thinking and feeling. thanks for being there to lend mi ur listening ear. i really appreciate it. i wont noe wat will happen to mi if i continue keeping those things inside. thanks darling. iloveyou lar!(:

its our 2months baby(((:

2008-12-15T15:18:00.002+08:00

happy 2nd month anniversary

aloysius chee wan hao!!

&baby, iloveyou.

PMS

2008-12-14T19:25:00.002+08:00

it has officially arrived on the 14th, girls monthly torture!

buay tahan ahhhhhhhh):
stomach cramps, feeling restless.
cramps cramps go away, come again another day... nonono don ever come back again!

hmm may have mood swings temper mayb be bad, haha bt don worry i don bite((:

hai

it has been super super long since i saw everyone. fri sat and sun hav been at home lor!
im a goooood girl everyone: DD

bt bt bt i need to see ppl i need to see u all darlings soon or i think im goin to go crazy. i miss everyone like hell and of course oso missing baby alotttt lar, i wanna meet u all up! pls cramps and da yi ma faster shooo and go away!

and, home without parents have been great whole house like mine. who wanna come over are all very very welcomed(:

alrightsssss goin off to find my loyal companion for these few days... my teeveee. and find something to eat to get myself fat!

<3

f u c k e d . u p

2008-12-13T00:53:00.002+08:00

no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job no job!!

no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money no money!!

kns feeling more and more fked up

life is booorrriiinnnggg!! any kind souls can intro job?((:
stupid economy stupid employers all say will call mi back, i waited how long le nt a single call back! so many wasted trips! life without money is everyday at home eat slp shit. im am seriously enjoying life lor, my tai tai life~

i feel sooo useless)):
and and and 15dec is coming , our 2 months how.....?

its 12dec

2008-12-12T01:21:00.010+08:00

wooooo 11dec is over ald):
12 dec is here..

6am reach his house, 8am reach lim chu kang thn its see u 2 wks later.

To baby,
i really dunno why must we have those quarrels, isit my fault? or mayb im still nt used to ur temper. all i can say is sorry if i really done wrong, if i really don noe how to hong u when u are angry. sorry if i cant be like them sorry im nt a good girlf or i don noe how to be one. bt sometimes i really jus wonder whether u noe those words tt u say will actually hurt mi and tt i mind, i mind alot when u talk bout them. talk bout how sweet they can be. all i can say is i am myself and i dunno how to be like them. i find no use making myself to be like them cause thn i am nt mi ald. i don noe wat i can do ald, i am afraid really afraid tt one day i will reach my limit i don noe wat i will do. i don wan tt day to come bt i noe myself, my feelings, my character. however much i don wan tt to happen sometimes its nt within my control. all i can wish is for tt day nt to come. bt my own wish my own thinking is nt enough i nd ur help.

sometimes i will think and think whether im de right one for u...

happy birthdayyyy

2008-12-11T06:34:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE!!
ONG QIAN YI IS FINALLY 17 OK:DDD

1 more yr, dis day 11th dec will come again and i will be 18! very very very soon it will come and i will join all of u ald no more underage((:

***Thanks to all for the surprises and wishes. i really appreciate it alot. and and love you all alot too!

ok lar nd to go to lala land nw if nt i dunno whether i will get to see the sun tml. byeeeeee nites all.
lastly a picture enjoy!^^

11dec will pass and 12dec will come,
if i say i dont want you to go, can u?

IM BACK

2008-12-09T15:19:00.034+08:00

hihihihi im finally back!(:

first day: friday, met the girls eme and cindy up to do major shopping and i mean REALLY major shopping at giant. lingdi came over and meet us after her work and we 4girls carried all the things back to chalet. i seriously think girls are nt weak at all lor! thn had alot of fun beside having our girls talk. i love those moment when we girls jus talk like nobody's business. i learnt ALOT of things(((:
thn after lingdi went home to rest, kr jeff junkwang edmund and pris came over. mahjong-ed until early morn bout 5plus all except cindy and mi left. we had the whole room to ourself. OUR DONG FANG NIGHT:D
cindy we had fun righttttt hahahahha!

second day: saturday, was the actual day of celebration. met eme up first to get the last min things done at parkway, silven xuewei huiwah and another girl came and find us. so sad they werent able to make it for the chalet bt thanks for all the wishes(((:
we went back to the chalet and saw a bunch of idiots sitting outside our unit. told them a few times nicely they refuse to listen. still wan come and scold us, stupid uncle think he old and got a big stomach thn he will win ah!!! angry.....
i got evidence!! those are tt stupid uncle's family members

ANYWAYS after the bbq started everything became better. i hope all had fun((: many werent there bt still thanks for the wishes. there are so many i wanna meet up bt was nt able to see them tt day. don worry very soon alrightsssss!

last day: sunday, slept all the way till bout 11plus. aircon was super cold and by the time morn i see all of us eme kr litian jialin baby and mi, all curled up and shivering. haha and thn home sweet home!

THANKS TO TO ALL WHO CAME AND ALL UR WISHES. I LOVE YOU ALL LAAAAAA:DDDDD

2 more days and baby is goin to army ald...
2 more wks after thn i can get to see him...
2 more years after thn he can ord...

i shld start counting down soon, 714days... 713days...712days...

still jobless, anybody can help me? pretty pleaseeeeeee)):

short break

2008-12-06T12:40:00.002+08:00

back from the chalet for awhile to put my stuffs and wash up. got to get out of my house very very soon in case i fall asleep!

bt i jus feel like lying down on my bed for alittle while and let my eyes rest....

if i could be your angel.

countdown!

2008-12-05T14:17:00.002+08:00

HELLO!
nah here is de update, doing it first thing once i wake up lor.(((:

todays the fifth which means SIX more days thn i will be officially 17!!:DDDD

I know lar its abit later thn everyone else, bt still finally its here. Haha.
Tml will be having my celebration excited excited excited!!

Thanks to everyone who hav put in effort in preparing/planning dis celebration AND thanks baby for all tt u hav done. LOVE AND KISSES FOR ALL<3

kkkkk goin to eat nw guess wont be updating until after the celebrations
hope to see all of u at the celebration okokok!
byebyeeee.

DAY ONE!

2008-12-04T02:42:00.001+08:00

hello girl, i am done with your blog in around 1hour plus.
phew! tired man.

but this is actually a little surprise planned for you, by eme, pris and me!
now, the four of us have blog liao lor. haha. you always very bored right? this little place is for you to rant at (:

tahan with this ugly skin for the moment, when i have more time i do nicer one for you okay? (:

hugs,
cindyyyyy (: